Saturday, December 25, 2004
It is Christmas today and i guess theres nothin much to cheer about. Woke up early in the Morning and found my father gone. Well, he went to work to earn 'money'. What the hell is this? Its christmas and you still have to work. dont even want to stay at home, or take the family out! Mum, give me a break man. Its christmas and you would not even let me out?
I am sick of this home. tired of what they want me to do, making me feel so empty, so under the surface, i dont know what the hell they expect from me, put me under the pressure of being stuck at home.Its every step that i make, i another mistake for them.... i dunno what to do...i feel like dying.
Outside, I seem happy. Inside, it’s the sad me. My life is really meaningless. I do not have plans for my future and I don’t know what I will do tomorrow.
I am in a mess, I don’t know what the hell I am talking in this blog. I just wanna die…
Merry Xmas to all…may you receive tons of presents. Bub bye.
PhoeNix 11:47 AM